I'm just sad it's all over I guess. I feel so much better about myself for turning around the porn addiction, 74 days clean today. But it's so tough, because I want to share the feelings I have. The W asked me to do something last week and I actually said no. It had to do with the old daycare pulling money from her account, and she thought I should take care of it, because it's our children. I felt terrible to say no, but it's her money and her business not mine. I even cried on the phone with my mom, telling her the story. She is overwhelmed though as well. Her Gma has 6 months to a year to live with cancer probably. Very sad, but I still have to separate myself from the stich. I can't help anymore, and she has to do things herself. But I am very upset about her Gma as well. It's her last grandparent, and I just lost mine 1 and half years ago, so I know the pain all to well.
