I know right? Thing is ... my 'cheat sheet' was a big collection of photos that had the invite mounted in the center .. not sure where she packed that up ... lol.
Yeah thats where I am and I have just been going on as you said .. no decision is happening today I have been continuing as such ... her temp checks and tracking beam have increased, almost like a child at a park, they are exploring but constantly check to see where her parents are. I have been better as of late not getting sucked in which she views as me being 'distant'
Her needs and my frustration: its more out of being burnt over the past few years in all this. One of my 180's was to be there for her, to show that I could be there for her to lean on as in years past I was just there in body ... not emotionally. Dangerous slope as you can imagine with the push and pull ... so I found a comfy medium in a sense but after she felt better she would fly ... leaving me feeling used ... thats where the frustration came from .... now I have just taken the "No Expectation" theme ... no different than driving a neighbor to the Dr office as I did last night ... again, she feels me being distant.
I know she needs space, and honestly its welcomed as I need it to to keep mu head clear and mind right ... feet on MY path.
By all means ... grab that ticket, I'll meet you for drinks and post all up in here about the new OW I met at the bar who had furry 2x4's ... bwahahaha
