Advice Welcome, separating and W moving out soon..

[jedi]

Hi Fogg,

I see that I painted a picture of a level of discouragement with IC, but I really don't consider it a waste right now. It's nice to talk to an outside party regardless.

After reading a book he recommended last session, I do in fact have some things I want to try and work on with my life as a whole. He's very much about Zen, Universe and shared energy, and I like that outlook on things.

I think an expectation is what makes me feel like I'm getting nothing, because we've yet to have a moment like you describe above, about something with me and my actions/personality where I'm like "oh, that makes total sense now!".

I do not plan to stop going, at least not for the time being.

[jedi]

Also after reading my thread again from start to finish, I have a new thing I'm going to try here - daily posting, and no more novels either

So for today:
GAL with friends tonight at an outdoor concert venue. Looking forward to this.

I'd sent W a txt Monday asking about some mail that showed up for her and saying I'd hoped her weekend was good. Nothing back until a while ago, saying she just wanted to say hi and hopes i'm doing well.

Do I even respond? and if I do, should I wait 2 days like she has?

[gan]

Concert, what concert, fellow D(M)B fan?

My take on the text thing: In the grand scheme of things, whether or not you respond matters not. If you do choose to respond, make it upbeat like life is good. No response fine as well.

[jedi]

Hi Gan!

Barenaked Ladies and Violent Femmes. 50% chance of rain but oh well, it'll be fun regardless and I have ponchos on standby!

[jedi]

Some more lyrics hit me today, first time I've lost it in a while. It did feel like a good release however.

Funny, I'm clearly still sad but at this point I can't exactly place what I'm sad about. I mean, if W came back right this minute nothing changes, what's gone is gone. It's like I'm sad about the idea of W and our M at this point, not necessarily W or the M itself.

Anyone else been here?

"And when the broken-hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be"

[ILYNOT]

Hang in there jedi79 and keep posting daily!

[PigPen]

Weird stuff is going to grab you and take your for an emotional ride Jedi. I've post this before but was watching an ESPN documentary on college basketball and ended up in a pile of tears on the floor for about a half an hour.

What does college basketball have to do with my W or M? Absolutely nothing.

Stay strong, every day you get through gets you one day closer to the day they stop hurting so much.

[sandi2]

Also after reading my thread again from start to finish, I have a new thing I'm going to try here - daily posting, and no more novels either

Once upon a time, I thought the same thing about myself. But I quickly discovered I have to use more words to get anything said.

[Fogg]

Nothing wrong with us novel writers on here we just accept not as many people have the patience to read it all, lol

People just comment more often on the shorter posts and its harder to catch up on the threads with longer posts.

[jedi]

RG, PP - thanks for checking in. I find it just so odd how I can go for days without being overly emotional, and then BOOM. And especially that song, because I've loved it since I first found the Beatles when I was in middle school. But, I'm sure it wont be the last time that happens.

Sandi, Fogg - I'm not sure I can actually shorten my posts when there's something to actually be said, but I really do plan to try