if it's too late why is he still here?

[mahhhty]

How am I doing? I'm really not sure, sometimes I'm fine, other times I'm pissed, confused, angry, sad, depressed, still in denial, scared, hopeless, trying to hold on to hope. Mad at myself that I waited to long to try to fix my M, mad at myself for still wanting to try to make it work and wanting to be with someone who doesn't want to be with me....wishing he would just go but not wanting him to...

I'm sorry you are in this stage. Its a crappy place to be. You do have the skills to pull yourself through, find solace in the fact that you have made progress. Continue to act as if. A question I wished I asked was "What needs to happen to rebuild our marriage and relationship?" Of course this needs to be delivered eloquently.

Have you talked to your coach?

((((lost))))