You know there is no reason to continue to feel bad IMHO.
You made a mistake. You are no different than most of us tbh.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and get back to living your life and believing in DB and not your current relationship. Can it be better again, YES, will it take a lot of WORK, YES.
Is this the right time to work on your relationship - NO. Work on yourself and when the right time to work on your relationship comes you will know it and then be able to work on it.
