Still Reeling from Betrayal

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Hi all... looks like some different names here than the ones I typically see in the Newcomer's forum. I've been posting over there for a month or so, but thought I'd post over here because my partner's infidelity just keeps rolling along, and she's gotten to where she refuses to see it as such. Just looking for some insight...

Apparently, not long after we took a camping trip (during which she was very affectionate and loving with me) with the woman with whom she would commence an emotional affair, my partner (we are a same-sex, not legally married but definitely committed couple) decided she was no longer "happy" with me, had "fallen out of love" with me, and wanted to move on. Dropped the bomb a mere two weeks after that trip, and for a few weeks, she was clearly confused and conflicted.

My W recognized she was having an affair. She knew, at moments, that she was addicted to the text messages and the furtive meetups. The OW was a predator who caught her in a very weak and vulnerable moment, and I made clear how I felt about this. In fact, before I found the book and these boards, I made a lot of mistakes.

After one fight in particular towards the end of May, she made it clear that we were "done," and she was going to start dating (this woman). The night of their first date, I kicked her out of the bedroom. The morning after their EA became a PA (it was so clear to me), I forbid her from touching me. (Although she's gotten around that one a few times.) Since then, she's just become more and more resolute: she and I are done, she is moving on, she has a new relationship, I'm not her partner anymore, she isn't cheating on me...

We are still living under the same roof and will until the end of August. At that point, we'll separate - she's moving into her own place, at least not with the OW right away. What I want to know is... do I still have hope?

When I look at the long view I think, yes... I must. She is still swirling around in a fantasy land, making questionable choices, absolutely not grounded in reality. How long till she realizes this, and possibly looks again for the stability and sanity she had with me? I can't compete with the OW's money... that's another obstacle. I don't know. But if she has redefined the situation to be something other than infidelity, it seems my odds are very long.

I'm DBing and GALing and detaching and getting my life on track regardless. This is more about whether I'm on a quixotic quest.

Thanks for reading, and if anyone has insight or experience here, I'd love to hear it.