Don't beat yourself up about making a mess of it. I doubt anyone gets of the mark perfectly in these situations.
I expect her to respond fairly soon as my L is asking for details to get the ball rolling. I'm hoping that when she sees that I have got a L on board that mediation will begin to look like an attractive option again. I know this is mind reading a bit but I think my WW would have expected me to crumble once she had instructed a L.
Me:43 Her:42 M:14 S:9 EA started 2014/03 (or there abouts) PA started 2014/05/30 BD:2014/11/05 I left 2015/10/01 I returned 2015/05/02 She left 2015/06/10 OM still on the go.