Pig Pen, thank you. You are right, and thanks for the encouragement. We had to talk this morning about housekeeping matters - moving the kids out, cleaning their apartment, what to do with our home, her buying me out of our business. Painful stuff, actually, and she tried to drag me into a fight - but I kept my cool. In the midst of it, of course I got to hear again all about how she's fallen out of love with me, how she has a new lover in her life, how she wants to live alone for at least a year (in a run down place in the hood) before moving in with her new girlfriend, how I need to just pick myself and my broken heart up and move on. All these things.
Whether reconciliation is possible or not down the road, I know all this is true. It just really feels, in the moment, that it's all a quixotic pursuit. She seems so determined to start this new life. I can't worry about that, and I know there's a big picture and a long view that she can see no better than I.
I'm just praying for God's will, and God's best for her.
Me: 46 Her: 41 M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18 3/26 W and I meet OW BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring W goes to stay with OW 6/26 NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16 I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19
