I'm slowly getting to the point where I don't really care what she does and whatever answer she gives for why is just going to be BS. If it's someone else I don't care and hinting that there might be isn't helping me cope with this.
The only thing that matters now is my S.
I am not sure she even wants to be involved with him anymore...which honestly hurts me more than what she is doing to me.
I just don't know how it's going to work with him seeing her a few times a week...he currently doesn't ask where she is and if she starts coming around 'randomly' won't that confuse him even more? I want to protect him from this MLC (or whatever it is) and emotionally unstable time in his mothers' life. I mean what happens if he has an overnight and she wants to have people over? I vision my son in a corner of some random place watching his mom drink and party with friends. Those are the thoughts that keep me up at night...
The W and I have time set aside later this week to discuss 'next steps' I just hope I can keep it together during that meeting.
