I laughed too, Ur, but my dirty mind didn't laugh for the same reason Been one of those days I guess.
Mr Bond, I agree. I didn't think I would that you need to know what's going on enough to protect yourself. I think the general advice to not snoop is more about detaching but one does need to know what's going on if only to protect from the batchit crazy mindset of a MLCr.
Cali, Toots hit the nail on the head I think. So did Ur (doesn't she always?) I would be feeling some of those tender parts being exposed at this point too, if I were you. I mentioned it before, but I see this like a bell curve for the MLCr. As you ride that curve up and then down, I would guess the same feelings would be present to some degree. Or at least they are if you haven't fully dealt with them and put them to rest for good.
I doubt what you're feeling is uncommon in this type of situation, Cali. This is the point when you test whether or not you put those feelings to rest. And some new feelings come up as well that you may not have expected.
It would be strange if you didn't have some of those feelings around the betrayal and such.
It may be a good time to talk to Father D about those feelings, or somebody like him. Somebody who can help you sort and sift through them methodically so the hurt little boy can go get some rest
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."