You can do this Heavy. Sounds like you're realizing how strong you really are!
Not to take away any of the pain of your sitch, but if that's what comes of this - Heavy figuring out just how amazingly strong Heavy really is - call it a blessing.
Dif is right, you're an inspiration on here. I have no kids, my W isn't trying to screw me over in any particular way, and still I struggle. I can't imagine having to hold myself together in all of the ways that you have and having my W flaunt an A in my face all the while.
That holding together - that is STRENGTH.
Big hug Heavy,
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