It sounds like your days are like most of us around here, somewhere between experiencing every possible emotion without warning or provocation of when they're going to come next. I've described the LBS's experience as bi - polar in it's truest form.
I never know when a single thought, memory, commercial, line in a book, or any other stimulus is going to either make me cry, or laugh out loud. I literally walked away from a full cart full of groceries last week and went out into my truck and cried. And I used to protect people's lives for a living!
Keep breathing. Keep working the process. And like all of us, keep having faith that one day we'll wake up feeling just a little bit better.
Big hug,
PP
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