Nice chatting with you too...you are gorgeous...just so everyone here knows that...and a redhead! Stereotyping I guess...you know Alaska...eskimoes...so sorry!!! I am terrible and to think I work at a very PC University.
Awwww! You are making me blush again. Thanks for the sweet compliment.
H called tonight. I was at church. I listened to his message which said he might call back later and decided to respond. I beeped him instead of calling and just said,"I just got home from church if you want to call back."
He called back almost immediately. He was very odd though. I guess maybe he was just tired. He was not very talkative, wondered why he even called. But, hey, he called.
Church was wonderful, as usual.
Going to watch the Sopranos and go to bed. Hugs and prayers, Akgal
I am choosing to have a good day today. I just got up at 8:30 and had a very fitful night. I think because H was so strange on the phone...but not sure. Think H may be having a midlife crisis through all of this. H is drinking more. H was saying he is just not happy. H is looking at land in other states to get a fresh start. H is looking at cadillacs. There may be an OW, as I got some strange phone calls. The phone calls have stopped since I changed my phone number.
But I guess that is H's problem and I can't help him.
I have to help me. I call treatment again today to see if there is a bed open yet. The best days for me to go would be Wednesday or Thursday of this coming week. I have a ride for sure on those days. Have to see about finding a ride today or tomorrow if they want me there this early in the week.
I'll be online most of the day if anyone wants to chat. Dragonflymanorlady.... called our new house dragonfly manor....hence the name.
Sounding good. As difficut as it is, you cannot wonder what H is doing. We all have to focus on us.
This ride, regardless of the outcome is a long and painful one. But quit calling H, she if he calls you. Believe I know how much you want to hear his voice, but then you get upset if he does not react or respond as you hoped, then you anquish over every word said and tone and so on.
H did call me...I wasn't home, he left a message. I beeped him and just said I was home if HE wanted to call me.
Will not beep or call H tonight unless he calls me and I am out. I do return calls as I would for any friend. I am trying hard not to initiate calls. Haven't done much calling him first except for Friday which was a low point for me. I do REALLY try to not call him at all. Friday I just really needed to hear another person's voice.
I am going bike riding this afternoon with some friends from church. Hope to have a really good time.
Treatment Center News: Now they say not til the end of this week. That's fine with me. Am learning patience is a virtue.
Boy am I becoming virtuous or what? LOL Just kidding. Am just learning to be patient.
H just called! He is going to stay here while I am here. This is huge.
It will probably be only one or two nights that we are in the house together, but it's a big thing. Before, he said nothing good could come of us staying in the same place together!
We will probably have separate sleeping arrangements, but I can hope....
He also said he needed my signature for a home equity loan. This is big, too. He said he is going to pay off the secured loan on his folks' motor home.
So where could he even get the money to cash me out? My wheels are spinning, but I'm not going to get too excited yet.
Stereotyping I guess...you know Alaska...eskimoes...so sorry!!! I am terrible and to think I work at a very PC University.
