(Note to newbies ... do not snoop, 80% of these issues were from snooping .. I was better off not knowing)
This seems to be a painful lesson we all learn the hard way. When were early in the sitch we just want answers and to feel connected in some way, even if it hurts. I can already see how those images and thoughts are burned into my memory only to resurface later and cause more destruction.
I can feel for all those emotions you're going through lately with the uncertainty of what you really want from the M, or if its even possible your wounds can heal. I don't have the answers and I have been wrestling with the same questions myself lately. I can only imagine being 2 years in and still having the same thoughts but I believe deep down the faith we have will allow them to heal. We may never be able to forget them, but I do believe we can get to a point where they no longer cause us the pain that controls our actions in an unhealthy way. A place we can be happy in our MR no matter who we end up with. Yes, running away and sabotaging may be the easy route for now, but I highly doubt it would be anything more than a temporary band-aid for the current pain. I think your doing great with what you have been through, keep moving forward and trust in God that things will work out. We might not be able to see it yet, but its there past the horizon waiting for us.
Originally Posted By: uRworthy
Get to gettin...or I am going to start fluffing up my 2 x 4.
I laughed, lol
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
