Last night I was ready to give up. I am so tired of just waiting to get into treatment and being put off everyday with a maybe tomorrow, maybe in a few days, or now a maybe next week a bed will open up.
I need to be patient. I need to REALLY listen to H. I need to be cool, strong, confident, and yet, speak softly. I know that anger is my enemy. I need to backoff, shut up and walk away when I want to speak out. Am getting better at this. I need to continue to take care of myself. Exercise, sleep, laugh, and focus on all the other chances in my life that are not in turmoil. I need to not call during the day and limit calls at night. I need to keep reading.
Today I have decided to do some work around the house...spring cleaning. I will also go to town with a girlfriend.
