Have you done any homework on reading up on MLC? If not, you might want to do so because they truly go back to a young age and learn to grow up from there. Some do, some don't...no way to tell until much, much later.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
