Pushing on

[NDY]

Ok wonka. I could write for days about this but mainly this is how I feel.

Hi WW

I'm sorry that we are here too. I still can't believe that not so long ago you were still my lover, my confidant, my best friend, my partner in crime standing shoulder to shoulder taking on the world together. I really thought we would grow old together. I though we would have so many more adventures the 3 of us until S9 grew up and flew the nest. Then it would be just us.

Sure, the last couple of years we've been unlucky in a number of ways. And yes, we did let life get in the way of living and I know I played a LARGE part in our M breaking down but I'f I understood for one minute just how deeply unhappy you really were I would have moved heaven and earth to do something about that. But I never knew how bad it got. We stopped making time for just us.

Remember what your mum said when S9 was just a baby about how we should make time for each other because children grow up? Good advice we forgot to take on board.

And I see our son and I despair at how he will be denied the chance to grow up with us both, and all the opportunities being in a family with both parents supporting him.

These days I miss my friend, my wife. I see or hear something funny and I still want to tell you about it. I want to re connect with you but you took another lover. He's fulfilling a need that should be up to me and me alone.