The Dance of Uncertainty Continues...

[V2pt0]

Sorry you had such a down day. I think that will happen for a while. Even though it has been 6 months, you were away for a bit of that time and did not have to deal with the situation right in front of you. I see that just from my business trips. Think you were gone for a couple of months right?

I am doing better and better, but have really hard days where I miss H like crazy. I travel overseas for work a lot and have always looked forward to flying back home to see H. This last flight home was almost unbearable. Sitting closed up in a plane for 11 hours with no where to go to escape showing emotions. Realizing I was no longer coming home to an H even though we still live together. I got my $h!t together over the weekend and had really good days. Soon those will start to outway the bad days. Since this weekend, I have really made an effort to see a stop sign any time I focus on H or negative feelings and turn my thoughts to myself and what makes me happy. Thoughts of graditude. Seems to be working.

Hang in there. You can do this!!