While we were dating it was good, we were both very happy, got along and were positive about the future, which then (at least I thought) moved into our marriage before kids. We would spend most of our time together after the birth of our son and while my love didn't change at that time our priorities did to focus on the new member of our family. Sex after the birth of our child pretty much dried up, he is almost three now and you could count on one hand how many times we've had sex since he was born. I would approach the subject with her and never really got a good answer. Maybe it was the possible cancer diagnosis? I am not sure. Obviously we have communication issues.
Whenever there were disagreements we would handle most issues very calmly and work together, some hot button issues (ie. more kids) would make me raise my voice which I always apologized for after. I would poke fun at the stuff she would say sometimes and we would both get a good laugh out of it so my intention was humor and not to make her feel bad.
After our weekend correspondence I'm not sure she really wants a family anymore....I think she wants to be the single punk rock girl she has always wanted to be.
Apparently her recollection of our past is much different than mine.
I cannot make her realize that she is ruining a family for her own selfish needs because this is not about me, it's about her and her decision to not want to try. I have to be strong for our son.
