Thanks so much sister, it is very wise to remind me about the MLC stuff. I do not get it totally. It's so hard to understand. But, the point here is that I should not be trying to understand. It is what it is.
I get really confused with H attitude. He comes and he is distant, does not get into anything. Then other day, he comes and is very friendly, flirting, like he is missing me. Then he sends me text about his family stuff, he is friendly and is sharing. Then other time he text like he is some stranger. Is very polite, but is very business like.
And I need to detach, do things that matter for me and for the kids. It is just so hard.
Maybe the whole "act as if" is my way to go. I also think that I am confused because it is hard to love someone that is doing so much damage.
Like Wonka said, it's not about me. The things he is doing is all about him. So, if I don't want to go insane, I need to let go and try my best to live a good life.
I am struggling with the fact that he betrayed me and left me with all responsibilities. I feel like an idiot.
Love the way you put things Toots, I envy you (in a good way) of how you see things and how calm you deal with everything. You are one very amazing woman and as RD says, your H is making a big mistake being so blind.
