Renewed Focus on ME

[V2pt0]

So, H apparently listened to me on Friday say he should move out now. At first he put up a fight and asked why he should move. I said because up you are the one walking away from M and having A. We did not make a final decision, but looks like he has. Doesn't look like he will come home tonight either and have not heard from him since reply to my text on Saturday. Deep down I think he needs something like this to feel like he might lose me. Still fighting urge to reach out and have moments of worry this pushes him a away for good, but I will hold tight and not contact.

Still have wedding trip this weekend, so assume he will be home at some point this week.

I am enjoying having space to myself and continue to feel more detached. Had great bootcamp today. Need to record compliments I am getting about weight loss and how good I am looking and play back when I have moments of weakness with H.