I know I am still not out of the woods with my enmeshment with wife. I have no illusions in that. I am getting there and even when there are off days with her and my interactions I have still been able to remain on keel... Mostly. So to answer your question...my better place, lot of just me and definitely being helped out by positive interactions with W. It dies make me feel better when we have really good days together.
There are a couple of things that still get me like when she shuts her screen off when I walk into a room. Doesn't happen too often actually more rare and rare...but it still drops my positivity a bit.
As for the no hope post...that was more or less, some over reacting to a bad couple of sleeps for me. This has been q long road and I do get frustrated and weary from time to time.
The reality of things is that I am getting better and that is a good start. Thank you for your honest questions...id rather that then not.
