Well, I am going into treatment on Wednesday or Thursday and will have a week with no phone calls at all. Then, I can only call out...so, won't have much contact with H.
It's the equivalent of going dark for a month in many ways.
Still, YOU ARE RIGHT. I have to detach. I have to get from Monday to Wednesday or Thursday without dwelling on H so much. So, here's my plan for today...
Monday...post here. Eat breakfast. Take meds. Do some writing. Eat some lunch. Go to DR. appointment, cancel water delivery, schedule dental appointment for H...while in town, get a good movie to watch tonight. Call girlfriend and see if she wants to do dinner and a movie this evening at my place. If not, make popcorn, watch movie with dog from 7-9pm...those are my worst hours for obssessing about H.
While in town, go to Salvation Army. Buy something old/new for self. Also, get bubble bath.
Post at bb.
Wash purchase while watching movie, take meds, and then, take bubble bath after movie. Go to bed.
That's as exciting as I can get right now. I'd love to paint a room, but H would freak out. The entire house is winter cloud white and that's how he wants it. He would be pissed off, if I changed something.
Thanks Dazed Boy...I know you are right. I am proud of the fact that I didn't cave last night and call him. Tonight I may have a legal excuse to call him, as he wants to know when I am going into treatment and I find out today. I think what I will do is just beep him and tell him what I found out in a sentence or two. Then, I will wish him a good evening.
Beeping him keeps me to one minute or less. It's less needy than calling. Calling would end up in phone conversation that I would have a hard time ending.
So that's my plan. I think I will beep him as soon as I know something...then that will be out of the way.
What do you think?
The alternative is to not beep him. Let him call me if he wants to know.
Maybe I should do that. I'm already leaning toward doing that.
