Bob, you're right...I'm grieving and didn't really even see it. Thank you. Having a name to what I'm feeling is a lot better than just feeling lost. What would I do without you guys, and why did I withdraw when I needed this the most? I wonder if I did that to my H too. I always accused him of doing it, well he does, but maybe I did too...Have to think on that.
I'm grieving for him and our friendship, my health, being an orphan (I know silly for being 46), and losing the stay at home relationship with my son. I'm also grieving the fact that I have no one to cry with. No physical contact since October is hard. I’m grieving the loss of the dream. Thank you sooo much for this. Yes, I’m crying but now I know why.
E - I can't imagine all that you have on your plate right now. Just keep taking things slow and moving forward minute by minute, hour by hour. This whole [censored] thing just [censored - censored]. There's nothing I can say that will make the feeling of loss go away. But time, and this process will slowly lead you to the best place for you.
Don't try to eat the elephant all at once; bite by bite, you can do it.
