Bob, you're right...I'm grieving and didn't really even see it. Thank you. Having a name to what I'm feeling is a lot better than just feeling lost.
No physical contact since October is hard. I’m grieving the loss of the dream. Thank you sooo much for this. Yes, I’m crying but now I know why.
Eirinn,
I'm happy that my post cleared up what you are feeling. And, it is so normal. You're not alone, I'm still going thru it myself, but keeping a PMA has really helped me. Still, don't deny your feelings. If you feel like crying - cry. It will help you heal.
I can really relate to the "No physical contact since October" comment you made. That's when my W left so it has been exactly the same for me. When I see my S or D1 or D2 and I get a hug from them, it feels like heaven! And these are my children. That's how much humans need physical contact.
We will get thru this together. Tomorrow is another day and who knows what it will bring?
Here's a verse I found for you E. I hope it brings some comfort to you.
"While Ezra was praying and confessing, weeping and throwing himself down before the house of God, a large crowd of Israelites—men, women and children—gathered around him. They too wept bitterly” (Ezra 10:1).
You will be OK!
xoxoxo
Bob
Me:55 yrs/W:51 yrs (has MS) M:14 yrs T:15 yrs No children together--3 each from previous marriages Wife Moved Out: 10/19/14 Wife Filed for Divorce: 10/20/14 Divorce Final: 10/21/15
