No, I wasn't clingy last night. I just let the conversation go as long as he wanted it to go and then didn't try to prolong it. Got off phone right away when he indicated he had to go. Kept it positive with No R talk.
Yes, I know I should try to end it first, and usually I have been doing just that.
I have been trying to be needy and pursuing only on the board...LOL..not calling him has been working and I intend to keep it up. I vent here so that I don't act out with him.
I will try in the future to be the one to end calls, however. I have been doing that other than last night. Last night he sort of surprised me by calling and I was taken off guard.
I didn't ask him to take care of the dog for me..I asked if his parents had already agreed to take the dog or if I should make arrangements for him. He said his parents were taking the dog. He prefers that, anyway.
He is the one who asked that I make him an appointment and that I cancel the water delivery. I didn't suggest doing anything for him, but did act pleased to help.
I went into the hospital for me and am going to treatment for myself. I've told him I am grateful for his insurance and that he is a good man for letting me take advantage of this opportunity.
However, this is for me. I have been struggling to stay sober and realize that when I was doing it to save my marriage it wasn't working. I want to be sober and happy and healthy.
The ten days in the hospital for depression helped me more than anyone could ever know.
thanks for your concern, please put the 2x4 away, I'm still pretty fragile, Akgal
