I sure am hoping that is what he is trying to do. Asking for little favors to regain trust. I plan on calling tomorrow to make his appointment and am going to call and cancel the water delivery, too. Am going to water his plants today.
It's funny, but now that he is so very gone, I love doing little things for him. I so want him back.
I am trying hard not to ask for anything unless I need it. He did pick me up from other town that was an hour and a half away when I couldn't find a ride home. He also bought me a chicken dinner to go, but that was out of politeness as he got himself one for the ride, too.
He always showed his love by buying things and working and providing. I didn't get it. I always wanted more. I wanted Ily's and hugs and affection...he isn't the type to do so.
I guess when you have a dog..you shouldn't want it to act like a cat and vice versa.
I'm like a dog...love affection for no reason at all, he's like a cat...standoffish unless he wants something.
I hope that he is seeing me go to the hospital and treatment as positive moves for myself. I hope he is seeing these things as independent moves forward for me.
I am so frightened that when I get sentenced to jail time, he will see that as the perfect time to divorce me.
He has not indicated that he wants anything less and he did have the house appraised. The appraisal came in at less than what he wanted and so now he is struggling with money issues.
That may keep him from doing anything right away, but maybe not.
All I can do is keep praying to St. Rita, the patron saint of the impossible. She is truly working miracles in my life.
Cheers gang! Akgal
Ps...how should I try to get him to talk more when he calls? I waited for him several times to talk and just got silence...I asked a lot of questions to get him to answer...which he did. Still, he was pretty quiet most of the half hour we were on the phone.
