Big big big hug to you. Again you seem to articulate so well so much that I can't even bring myself to put in writing. Struggling with anger vs fear of the grief that will pour out if I let it. Struggles with feeling overloaded. It's all there.
You seem to be in a stronger place than I am (I actually do get some time each week, and I'm lucky enough to work with some very supportive colleagues). I empathize. This is so tough.
I hope that knowing you are heard and are about helps. I hope you find time for self-care and can be kind to yourself.
I hope you can recognize the amazing growth in your relationship with your daughter.
Thank you for being here and for taking the time to share your story. It makes me feel so much less alone.
