Hi Pink. So sorry to here about S15. I think it's often the problem with kids when they have such a caring and loving mum. He is depending on you for both mum and dad now and that makes it tough on you but you can handle it.
As usual I agree with Toots that I don't think your really finished with H. You love the man and you can't just turn it off. ( even if you would like to !!! )
While I think you should relax back from H for your own sake , I hope that you take a few days to decide if it's over or not.
We all know the Pink we love is a passionate person and I would imagine when it's comes to Pinks boys that's multiplied by 1000. As Toots says his relationship with them is for him to sort out and at the moment I don't think you H is thinking clearly enough to do that.
plenty of hugs for all the boys Pink , your their rock. You have to let H do what ever he's going to do and live your own life. The M isn't over until a calm , relaxed Pink decides it is.
Stay strong for you and your family Pink. hugs and kisses. Rd
