Son and I had a great evening together. Made chocolate chip cookies...gave him his Easter basket, ate lemon chicken, and fell asleep watching cartoons in master bedroom together....
Slept 'til 9:30...now up and posting this brief "hello, gang"message...
Will not call H again today...the beep yesterday was brief and to the point...mostly a polite thing to do. Didn't expect a response, didn't get one. Just let him know son made it here ok and that I appreciated his help in making that happen.
Saying thank you is a big 180 for me. I was pretty selfish and self centered.
Will spend time with son...will hope Saturday doesn't fly by (as opposed to fearing it would drag slowly by if I was all alone) and will try to let son do as he pleases...see friends, etc. Not be too needy with son...he is almost 13...and he doesn't want to just hang out with his mamma...
LL...congratulations on your cooking lessons! What a great idea! I don't know if I am ready to start anything right now...time being short before treatment and court...but afterwards...what a great idea. I could easily give writing lessons....poetry workshops, nonfiction seminars....YEAH.
I am in a better much more Positive frame of mind today. One day at a time...ST. Rita is helping me to deal with things I believed were impossible to deal with.
As for me and H, I am just trying to be his friend. I asked him if we could at least do that much...try to be friends. After 10 years together and almost seven years of marriage...it's the least we should be able to do.
