In which I'm feeling lost, but will perservere

[Elly4]

So, I've been lost, my IC says I'm unregulated atm, forgetting to self care, be on here, so on...so I want to be unlost...

So, first step, I'll talk about everything that has been going on and then let it go and move on. Or at least try to. Ever notice how it's easier to help others than yourself.

In September of last year, I was diagnosed with Sjogrens, (an autoimmune disease), in October, my grandmother passed away which was tough for me as she was my last blood, older relative, no parents or grandparents now. Two weeks later, my H for 17 years and best friend for 23 did the BD. In December, I realized that I needed to go back to full time work in the fall of 2015 and not be a SAHM anymore, started DBing, and steps in the R were taken that are listed in my signature.

In more recent times, my 3 year old is in the process of being diagnosed with either being on the spectrum or having a sensory processing issue, while being a genius, my Sjogrens has progressed, I had my first job interview since 1997, and I have had to deal this weekend with inlaws that my husband can't stand (His dad and stepmom), and the ones he likes (his mom and stepdad) are coming up next weekend, my sister was diagnosed with epilepsy, and I have no clue what to do for Father's Day.

And then he puts his ring back on the last few days, only to take it off again last night when the inlaws left. Oh, and my IC thinks someone of my anxiety might be rooted back to abuse in my childhood during summers.

I'm not lost, I think I'm drowning. But the fact that I'm on here babbling means, to me at least, that I'm coming out of the funk...I think.