Hello dearest friends...RD, Karma, V, Toots and Skydive,
I am letting go. On Friday H text me when he just arrived from the airport and I just said that his car was at the house and said Thank you, I appreciate you sacrificing so much time loaning the car to us.
Today H texted asking me if I had some discount coupon and I answer just "NO". I actually answer about 8 hours late but I just got busy and did not check my phone.
Then after my short answer, H text saying "I hope you are well. My dad got out of the hospital yesterday and he is home now" ... I did not answer at all.
And the main reason I will let go is not even because of me, but when he was home on Friday he saw S15 and just asked how he was doing and then said he needed to go and would talk to them on weekend.
Friday night I left to a neighbor city festival with all three boys. I met a friend there and told the boys that they could do their stuff and would be with my friend for awhile.
S15 made a big fiasco. S21 sent me a text telling me about it. When I came close to S15, he was very mad, wanted to leave and said that now I will be with my friends and find someone and abandon him as well.
That he hates his father and would be happy to hear that he is dead, that I am too worry about myself and blah, blah, blah.
It was a heartbreaking scene and I cried a lot later, thinking that H made a huge mass and now I need to resign my again because I need to be the support for the kids. What kind of father did I chose for my kids? Yes, the answer is... a father that does not care about anyone besides himself.
So be it and go to hell. I am finally getting tired of H games. I just want him to leave me allont.
