I read your email of questions and wondered what the heck you were doing - then it dawned on me that it was your list of excuses. If someone didn't read my post they would think you had lost your mind!
I really think that your H cares for you but had reached a point that he didn't know what to do. He has shaken you to the core and that has put you in action. YOu are facing up to everything and moving forward. If you keep up DBing, the future just may surprise you....and him. Just let him call all he wants - you're not calling him. Funny how that works.
I would bet your pubic defender could plea you down a bit in your sentence or get it changed to community service. Have you ever thought that maybe your writing gift could benefit young people? Tell the judge that you will write a script for a video discouraging alcohol use and write matching materials (brochures, discussion guide, etc) to go with it. Tell him you will speak to schools about your experiences so they might avoid finding themselves in a similar situation. Not only would a judge be impressed by your initiative, but others would benefit as well.
Hey - do Easter a month early. Last week my S3 insisted on making cupcakes for his birthday (it's in August) that were decorated with black and orange for Halloween. Then he insisted that we put a candle on one and light it and sing Happy Birthday to him at dinner time. The next day he told me it wasn't really a party because people who didn't live in our house weren't there....so knock yourself out on whatever holiday you want to celebrate!
You didn't like my suggestion about writing your own book? Or just journal for yourself? If you are bored, can you sign up for an Internet-based class of some sort? If you want to renew your teaching license, see what the state board of education offers on-line. I bet they offer something and it may not cost all that much either.
Have fun with your son. I am sure that GA and GU were disappointed, but let it settle a bit and then maybe call while your s is there and apologize and then let him tell them that he will spend a night with them sometime soon. When they realize that this will be your last chance to see him for a little while, they are likely to understand.
So if you are coloring eggs and making a basket, are you having an easter egg hunt too? Go for it!
Have a great weekend!
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