Hi Tad, wow, that is quite a list .... and I am sure there are a lot of us in the world that can identify with it - I for one.
I really get how you feel, I have been there; the darkness that fills every space of your body and life, it can so easily consume you and take you into its depths, to make you ask the question "what is the point".
Tad - its about changing your mindset, making the decision to not let this crapola that you have been served up rule you any longer. I know it's hard to find the enthusiasm to take the first step, but believe me my friend, once you take the first move, the second is easier and so it goes on.
I like you have lost my life as I knew it - if you told me 18 mths ago that I would be alone, a cleaner in a budget supermarket to make rent, family all but gone, husband and best friend gone, money gone, home gone - I would have laughed and said "nah, not possible" yet here I am - but I listened to the peeps here, I went out and met people, yep me, all alone walking into a room of people I did not know, going to a party where I only knew the birthday girl, flying across the world on my own - I did it, I met people, I made new friends, I experienced new things ...I am rebuilding my life. I have made this my "year of yes" - to be brave and do things I would have never done pre bd. My life is moving forward once more, I smile again, I laugh again and I see a future for myself -
It is possible, you can do it - YOU can do it - just take the first step ...... Dont let this darkness win, you are deserve so much more.
