I agree with bea. I do think you can break this idea and be a guiding light for your boys.
I also agree with Wonka. It was a great post. I know, though, that it can be difficult to p/u those ideas of GAL. I know sometimes, it made me upset... like.... I don't want to do those things! But, that's not the point. The point is, there are so many things to do! You just need to find what fits you, Tad.
I have been in some low places. But, I'm worried, Tad. I want to see some motivation from you to make things better.
And the bottom line is... no one is going to do it for you.
You have to do it! Just like Wonka said, you are the director of your own life.
I know I felt that I was kind-of... waiting... for someone... something... I don't know... to make it better???!!!!
It's not gonna happen.
You can do it! You just have to FORCE yourself to do the hard work. Have you called to talk with anyone? It took me over a year and a few people before I found the right one. Just because it didn't work the first couple of times... I knew there was more out there. So, don't give up!
You can find the right one, too. Now, I don't think about things when I'm invited. I'd think of reasons of why not... now I just do. It took a lot of work and some time to get here. But now, I'm loving it!
Tad, seriously.. I have been in dark places. I can relate to many of your posts, but it is up to you to free yourself from it. Forget the beast of burden. Beat it. Forget about xw. She will not get you out of this. You may feel she put you here, but who will get you out? You.
Do it. I know you can! I can't wait to see it. One foot in front of the other. It takes time, patience, work... but it's worth it. No doubt.
