H pickedup the boys, (her vehicle - her & her kids in it.)to go see a movie. H missed his visit on Wed cuz of work but I consider this to be a makeup day.
It was hard.
OW had gotten out of her vehicle to put something in the trunk and I guess just seeing her a little closer -hurt.
I am feeling so betrayed right now.
Need some advice.
About 2 wks ago, I mentioned to my SIL that their cousin text me everyday with words of encouragement and how she and her mom (H aunt) are praying for me all the time. However, I found out that this cousin is also texting the OW with same kind of prayers and stuff. ???
Then seems like right after I said that this bothered me to my SIL, the texts stopped. Weird.
I also found out from a former coworker of my MIL (who happens to be my good friend's sister) that my MIL would tell everyone at her work that I was the crazy one. She bashed my character and integrity with lies. I always figured that my MIL would gossip about me. The coworker said she was always shocked that MIL would say these things since I've known this friend since high school and she knows that I am not how MIL said I was. MIL continues to gossip based on all the stuff my H has told her (lies). She tells everyone so many lies. And the problem is that this town feels smaller and I feel like that everyone I meet or know is on H's side. Believing his version. Though I have no proof - it still feels like that.
I feel betrayed on so many levels - SIL, MIL, extended family, friends. The pain is so unbelievable. As if H's betrayal isn't enough. I am mad at myself for being bothered. I don't want this to bother me. I don't want to feel like this. I don't want them to have this control over me and I know I am letting it. UGH!
I should focus on my health and especially my children but how do I stop being bothered by this stuff. I shouldn't care what these people think or say since it's a jaded portrait of me. I know the truth and who I am. Though I am not perfect, I do have real feelings and I am a happy proud mother to my beautiful children.
Thanks for listening. Praying for DIVINE protection, wisdom, healing and mercy. Thank you for your continued prayers. Blessings to all of you for being so strong and wise. :-)
