Thank you RosaLinda for saying that I am stronger than I think, everyone says that to me but I certainly don't see it yet. Yes I work at a hospital as a medical administative assistant, my job keeps me sane at the moment & my boss(female) and all my co-workers are all amazing to me and very supportive. I am lucky for that.
I am very hard on myself, I always been....One thing that I need to STOP doing because it is exhauting....
It's funny to see you write that your mind goes blind because lately when I'm with my H, my mind goes blind and there is big silence gaps in the conversation....I am writing those statements for me to memorize them for future use.
I did read the stages of MLC and I keep reading it because it discribes him to the T, it is so him & the 2 affairs are over now and he's saying that they are all female friend including me. The 24 y old one is done done because he will avoid going to our Tim Horton downtown because she works there,-he failed to tell me so I got served by her a little while back
I had plans to work on the house and catch up with some friends this weekend (I wanted to go kayaking but she was sick)so my plan is to by my own so I could go alone if I had too) but today was a bad day, he was bringing a female friends fishing and it made me so sad to think about it that my motivation went out the window, I was able to get up, do some laundry, read a little, go for a drive for some ice cream then had a nap & a good cry cause I was holding it in all day. The girls are doing amazing, they are troopers, they keep busy and they talk to me often which is good.
