Why do you not have any friends where you are? Have you moved there recently?
What about all those friends you did things with earlier, when your son and their kids did things together? Try and stay in touch with people, it helps you through the day without thinking of your situation all the time.
Sorry you have turned down the book work, it might have helped keep up your self esteem. But I know how dreadful you feel, as I too have put a personal project of mine on the back burner for the last ten months.
Did you get your new computer?
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
