The end

[mustardseed]

I got his petition for divorce yesterday. I'm ready to end this now. I'm at my parents with the kids this weekend. Everything feels normal when I'm here. I don't think about what he is doing or who he is with. I have some GAL planned for the next three weekends. Some with kids some without. He sent me his summer schedule so we can avoid conflicts. I don't know what his plans are. Only when he plans to be mia. I am going to try and keep my plans just as vague.

So it is time to bury this marriage. I'm so sad. He was the love of my life. But he is no longer the man I married. I hope to once again have companionship. But I don't think I will ever feel so right with someone again. I've had plenty of relationships before him, and never once did I think it was right, just right for the moment. He was different. It's sad that something that felt so right for so long can end just the same way as those that never felt right. I don't know if I'll ever be able to trust and love like that again.