Maybe this isn't the time to comment, but you posted
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I feel so bad for my boys because they have lost everything too. Maybe we are cursed.
This thinking will not help them at all. I know you love your boys - I have sons who are now adult who have lived through this, with great sadness and are now thriving. I would say they are strengthened by it.
It really is how we choose to respond to these blows. They are watching your example, your courage, your response. Please be an example to them of someone who can face and overcome. It isn't easy, but with support from here and therapy you can change how you view the world and what it throws at you. And if you can, they will see they can too.