asitis, I wish I would be stronger longer some days, my head is all over the place and I stuggle to do what I should really do, I wish I could move up time.
I totally understand, and some days you really wont want to be strong. Unfortunately, that means doing some GAL on the days you do feel strong so that you have a good support network to turn to when tbose hard days show up.
It will take time, so focus on baby steps for GAL. Things like, by the end of this month I will have identified an art class I want to take & signed up, I'll go to church/synagogue/etc twice this month, I will go for a walk 4 days a week this month. Next month repeat. It will help with the emotional struggle, help you feel like an independent person starting to build a life, and increase your chances to attract you H back. Some days you'll feel like "why bother?" Try to follow through on one of your baby steps. That was tough, and I still did X builds PMA & confidence.
When you feel like cr*p, let youself really feel it. Focus on what emotions you are feeling, how it feels in your body, see if you can detect a trigger and note it. If you face tbe paknful emotions, they loosen a bit and are less likely to drive you to pursue your H.
Don't be too hard on yourself, we all struggle, and we all went or go through this. You'll make it and I bbet you'll come to see you had more strength than you believed
Good luck and hang in there.
Me: 50 W:43 S6, S3 M: 12 yrs. T: 17 M is bad & Not happy Bomb Mar '14 S 5 Feb '15 D Bomb 13 Apr '15 (but "no hurry") DB Coach May '15 Wants proceed on D Aug '15 Starting 1-on-1 negotiations Sept '15
