Put one foot in front of the other (Part 3)

[teach3]

Hey Eirinn,,

I hope you had a great Sunday! I will be looking for your update.

[Elly4]

Hey guys...sorry I haven't written. I've been in a pretty bad place mentally and I rather stay positive on here for the most part. I have this tendency to withdraw when I'm anxious instead of reaching out. Got nailed by my IC today when she asked how things were going on here and I said I hadn't posted on my thread since the 1st. Although I will say that from my H's point of view, I have had a great PMA. Just know I'm lying.

I'll write more tomorrow, but this is about all I can do for now. Will catch up on what some of you are up to instead.

E

[Zephyr]

E, When i got here, it took me months to even create a log-in and then another month+ to actually post because I was in such a rutt.

Putting us out there is a good way to vent that $hit away...it has helped me keep focus and PMA even if it was just blabbering or repeating...you know, you've read my insanity... But it for sure has helped me at home.

Was worried about you.

[Sotto]

Hi Eirinn, sorry you've been having a tough time. Do keep posting if you feel able, and know that things will improve at some point. Maybe not just yet - but improve they wil in their own time.

Take Care (((Eirinn)))

[Matt777]

Stay strong and keep your chin up, E!

[Bob723]

Hello Eirinn, I am so sorry to hear you've been having a rough time. As Toots said, "Do keep posting if you feel able." as we understand you can't stay positive on the forum all the time. That's what it, and our "family" are for.

Some days, you just won't feel like. I certainly understand.

Hang in there. It sounds like you could use a few hugs . . .

*Hugs* *Hugs* *Hugs* *Hugs* *Hugs*

Your friend,

Bob

[Elly4]

Thanks everyone. I'm just getting overwhelmed, and way tooo tired. My Sjögren’s has been acting up, my son's issues (we'll have to take him out of the school he really likes for him to get services in the fall), my going to interviews (and thinking of not being home with my S), my two sets of inlaws visiting this weekend and the next), my sister being diagnosed with epilepsy, and of course, my husband and I.

I've always felt anxious at this time of the year, but a lot of it I attributed to the end of the school year insanity. Yesterday my IC pointed out to me that while that might be the case, behind it all might be a dread for the summer as that's when my abuse happened when I was a kid.

I really just want to crawl in to bed and stay there.

I'm sorry not to be braver or stronger, but lately I'm just sad. On top of that, it's very hard to find a new best friend.

[Elly4]

So my Hs father and step mother have been here the last two days. He accepted their request to come, but basically ignored them while here. So I was the hostess to two people I've only met 5 times in 23 years. Should I have just bailed?

On a separate note, what do I do for Fathers Day? He had my S get me a really nice table for my deck.

[Bob723]

Hi Eirinn,

I've been wondering how you are. Sorry things aren't going well. I understand this feeling: "I really just want to crawl in to bed and stay there."

I think playing hostess to your H's father and step mother was very kind of you. Getting to know you, as I'm sure others will agree, this is the loving, caring "E" we know.

Should you have bailed? Since your H basically ignored them while they were by you, yes, I think you should have. But, by the time you realized your H was ignoring them, they were heading off into the sunset.

I will pray for you tonight.

xoxoxo

Bob

[Elly4]

So he put his ring back on while his dad is here. Bet it's off by tonight.