Sweden beyond rescue it seems.

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Tulo, Big, Big hugs. Well done for removing him on FB. I did not have the strength to do that. h removed me first.

You have read my thread and have seen how difficult it has been for me to detach. For the last few days, I have been doing a lot of reading and have reflected a lot on it.

I have repeatedly said to myself, why would I want someone that does not want me. This has enabled me to see H more clearly, his faults, what he has contributed to the breakdown of our M. Initially, I placed a lot (most) of the blame on myself.

I still miss him terribly and for awhile was daydreaming about the time when we would meet back up in the UK, have amazing sex and everything would be ok. like you, this was one area that we connected really well. I still have the craving of wanted him physically. I don't know how strong I will be when I actually see him again.

Since I have stopped looking at his FB page and our joint accounts my own pain has declined. I was putting myself through that. Why would you want to stab yourself deliberately? I still have the urge but fighting it is becoming easier. I have not spoken to H since 9th of April and proud to say no snooping for a month. Small, small steps but it does moves us forward little by little.