It's lose lose right now. She brought the mishap with the dr appointment up and I told her what happened. The convo turned into a longer one and I'm sure I messed up and should have stfu but I couldn't help it (I'm a work in progress, before this I would have yelled and justified and tried to convince her she's irrational). We talked about our relationship some and she kind of brought it up but she said she got to the point where she knew she wasn't going to give me a chance anymore and I asked why I didn't get that chance to show her I could meet her needs and she said she didn't trust me, so I said why didn't I get the opportunity for her to trust me and she said she didn't want to give me that chance. So I left it at that.
She brought up me always being gone and taking my D2 with me and how it's so outside the norm and how it's frustrating I give her the least amount of details as possible. I just told her I wasn't being vindictive and I can see how that's frustrating. She just mentioned it's so outside of the norm for me so she thinks it's me trying to punish her, I told her that wasn't the case I was just doing things I wanted to do and that involved doing things with D2
I know I should have stfu but then I simply said for me I just hate knowing I'll always wonder what if in the future and she said she thinks that's human nature and her counselor said we have to make decisions by the facts that are in front of us (the same counselor that said she could work on our marriage with the OM still involved). I simply said I disagree with that. I told her I want all the facts I can get before I make a decision. I then told her I was moving on like we are done and ultimately we are responsible for only our own decisions and I got up and walked off.
Please tell me I didn't f up too bad. She is DEAD SET on the D, which isn't a surprise to me. She is so wayward it's ridiculous. I know I shouldn't have said all that but hopefully I didn't screw up too bad. She's just so hateful towards me and it's still hard to get spewed on and just take it
Me: 32 Her: 29 M: 5 T: 11 D2 ILYBINILWY: Jan 15 BD: 2/13/15 (I found out, she didn't tell me) W filed for D after I confronted OM 5-27-15 Papers served 6-3-15 Temporary Order 7-15-15 W Moved out 7-17-15
