Have realised that this is going to be a very long race that I have no way of knowing the outcome of. Since I still have stuff at his place, and want to show detachment I just sent him a text today, asking him to put the stuff outside his door on Sunday as I will pass his town. (We had decided that he would leave it here, at my place when he pass for work next week.)
Not sure if that was dumb, but as I have decided to go dark I don't want this hanging over my head that he might show up, and I hope this will make him a bit surprised because since he thinks that I'm so much more into him, than he is into me, and probably thought I'd take the chance to meet him when he dropped by. Any thoughts?
Now I have planned a 6 week period of not reaching out to him in any way and see how I feel after that time has passed. He will be back in the US by that time and since we have been so very close emotionally when he's been there the previous times (and I'm hoping he'll remember that and maybe feel the difference when we're not) I figured that since he had promised me to get some stuff for me at his next visit it's a good time for me to just check in and see if that's ok with him..
What do you think? Going to read up on GD when I get back from my run, have to get some relief from my anxiety now..
M: 44 H: 43 ILYBNILWY: 7/4-15 Decided to try to reconnect. "This doesn't work, I have no feelings": 20/4-15 Scheduled "talk" :9/5-15 It's over: 9/5
