Ripken - WW filed for Divorce and I moved Out #5

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Thanks PigPen, Defacto and Matt! It means a lot and it DID and does help. I have gone back a couple times to re-read it. Each time I do, it helps with acceptance, closure and the ability to say good-bye.

That person I wrote the eulogy for may never come back and SHE is who I've been holding onto the rope for. I had to let go for me.

Also, I realized and re-realized more about myself, where I had been and where I still may be at. I read a great article on neediness, essentially. It talks about there being 2 main forms in a relationship on opposite ends of the spectrum. The first is having your partner serve as your validation and reassurance that you are worth something and valued. The second is cherishing your partner so much you put them on a pedestal and almost take away their faults and humanity.

Both seem to be caused by low self-esteem and overall feelings of not being good enough. So, I continue to work on me and my own self worth.

Only then will I be able to accept another for who they are, not elevate them and not need to constantly temperature check. It can be tough to miss having someone. But I don't NEED someone to meet those needs, it's merely a want.