Gunna miss being at home, and there was a time when I wanted to be anywhere else. I have large lay over between planes and it's seems the make up collection has grown, damn airport shops.
Seems I met a lady on the first plane, and she didn't want to leave when we said good bye. I said or did nothing really but it seems a made a friend. Seems xh2 generalisations of no one ever likes and and everybody hates you as your nasty ride and selfish just are less and less valid.
If funny I'm finding people are more and more drawn to me, without actually do or being any thing or anyone special. Shrugs I'm not sure why or what I'm doing differently.
I didn't feel different I didn't think I've changed very much. Im still getting those pangs of unworthiness and not feeling like any thing special.
S17 did however spend the weekend at home last weekend and things went smoothly with him and bf. I didn't tell him what was going on, but as the whole world knows even those whom I thought wouldn't know for months do I guess s17 has already heard and knows.
Boy I'm looking forward to real shops! And shoes and make up and...... And and!
M 46 h54 Both married before T 11y Bd 2/14 I must see where ow leads! Ms 18 hs 26
