The change I need and want to make within myself is to get back myself if that makes sense. I think i became so worried about what H was doing that o wouldn't let myself do anything afraid if I did he would go out and do who knows what.
Yes, you've lived in chronic fear about what HE is doing/thinking/feeling and it's NOT getting you anywhere. Keep your movement in the "forward" gear.
When you operate in fear, you are Not operating in faith.
M: 57 H: 60 M: 35 yrs S30,D28,D19 H off to Alaska 2006 Recon 7/07- 8/08 *2016* X = "ALASKA 2.0" GROUND HOG DAY I File D 10/16 OW DIV 2/26/2018 X marries OW 5/2016