One other goal I have for today - to go 24 hours without seeing her or speaking to her. I guess this is going dark? I went to church this morning, then to a coffee shop, then to the nearby state park. Had to come home to charge my phone, heard her on the phone upstairs, but I ignored her and went to the back porch. After the phone was charged, took my computer and phone and came out to the community pool. It's nice out here, just chaotic and noisy. (It is a pool, after all!)

I see from her calendar that she is supposed to be somewhere at 3, in just a few minutes. And then she has "plans" tonight... so do I, with my kids, who are taking me to dinner. Hoping I have an appetite and looking forward to a nice time with them. And hoping we'll have fun things to talk about. It's been so gloomy in our house lately, and they've been so good and supportive.

Hoping everyone is having as good a day as possible.

Me: 46 Her: 41
M: 5.5 yrs / S: 20, 18
3/26 W and I meet OW
BD: 5/2/2015, she takes off ring
W goes to stay with OW 6/26
NC: 9/5 Both moved out: 10/16
I take off my ring and feel... healed: 10/19