Hi Matt...been busy with work and haven't had the chance to share anything here. Things are looking up I actually feel so much better about myself since BD about 12 weeks ago.
Ex-H is very nice now, almost feels like he's back to his old self with me. More affectionate and doing stuff around the house and we hang out with kids on weekends.
We still hv the same arrangements though. I stay in our house on weekdays and he gets to stay with kids on the weekends.
During our last MC he mentioned that he is more at ease with me and can open up more now. His complain before this was I'm always critical and too opinionated. However at the back of his mind he still can't shake the feeling that it's all a facade. That remark hurt at first but I had to validate what he was feeling and accept it. He says he still needs more space and time.
As for myself, I'm no longer in a rush for us to remarry or get back together. Taking it one day at a time still..but it's moving into the right direction.
oh we did have an argument 3 days ago. He was getting annoyed with kids and me over plans for dinner. We went into a shouting match but I didn't want to go down the old road where we would yell each other's head off infront of the kids so I told him I'll talk to him when we've both calmed down. Took awhile though..but it worked. The next day when we discussed what happened (which we never did before this...usually just sweep it under the carpet), he told me that that was what he was afraid would happen again if we got back together. Told him we can't expect our R to be perfect, at least now we know what to do and how to react.
so for now we're taking it real slow, I'm just glad we're moving towards the right direction.
How's it going over on your side?I do hope and pray you're keeping well!
I actually feel so much better about myself since BD about 12 weeks ago.